This is my first post on this blog — and honestly, it feels a little strange to be writing again. My thoughts are a jumble, but I’ve finally managed to sit still long enough for my mind to quiet down and let something come out. I have a lot of difficulty with writing so bear with me.
It’s been hard to focus lately. I’ve been off work this month because of the furlough, yet I haven’t really been able to rest. I used to be able to just be — to let my mind drift, to feel, to let creative ideas come and go like waves. But lately, that flow’s been blocked. Maybe for months.
Working in the federal government this past year has been tough. All the cruelty and non-sense from this administration. And in all that madness it’s been hard to be at peace. To just think. I stopped picking up my camera. I stopped walking into my studio. I stopped noticing the light the way I used to.
Last year, though, fate gave me a muse. The heavens knew I needed her. She’s inspired me in ways I can’t quite explain — but I haven’t been able to create with her as much as I’ve wanted to. She’s very busy. Still, I feel there’s so much more there, waiting beneath the surface. A depth I want to explore through my lens.
Maybe I just need more sleep. Or to get back on my bike. To breathe a little deeper and stop overthinking. Easier said than done when you’re working in the government right now — but I’m trying.
I guess I just needed to post something. To start somewhere. I’ve been pushing myself to get this site together — to have a space again where I can share my work and my thoughts in a more personal way.
So here it is. My first post. A little messy, but honest. Hopefully, it’s the start of finding that flow again.
Pure.